WHY AM I DOING THIS!!!!!!!!!

I'm such an idiot!!!!
GAH.

That's kinda how I feel about it..like..that's the first layer of how I feel..and then after that it goes to like

What am I going to do, when I can't do this anymore?

and then I get kinda emotional about the whole thing..because the thing is making me happy

Let me elaborate on the happy. It's making me incomparably happy, as in NOTHING makes me happier

and then I go back to GOD I'M SUCH AN IDIOT

.....What am I going to do, when I can't do this anymore?


....Our relationship is changing, it's getting so much better.