Why do you think your the only one getting hurt in this situation?

I keep hurting people..

All I want to do is be happy..
I need force right now..
I need to be very submissive..
I need someone to take me, and wrap me up, or throw me down..or -whatever- and force me to be happy..

Because if you leave it to me..if you let me run the show...I'll end up hurting everyone in the cast out of fear that I don't know how to direct..

that's just how it is right now..
I'm sorry I can't be what you want melissa...but i'm just me..

...as damaged as that might be..